小丑的眼泪

Reload...

2010-01-25T07:39:00.000-08:00

~Bullets down the barrel ~

~ *Kachak* ~

~ Reload ~

Why the strange opning you ask me ? well....it's all because of a "small incident" that happened while I was blogging....

You see ,while I was typing my FIRST post ,my comp auto shutdown at the WRONG moment .At 1st I thought it was nothing ,but when I least expect anything ,that's when blogger failed me .
Whatever I have typed...was totally GONE .ZERO. ASTALA VISTA...*you get my point *

So..I'm forced to type all these out the 2nd time !!!! *rawr!!!!!!!*

Anyway ,in the past few day ,I once again had my love came over to my house ^^

owh how i've missed her.... *ahem ahem*

ANYWAY...we then went to Mid Valley (as usual ) and went for

the movie ....

To be honest ,the movie was not as BOMBASTIC as I anticipated it to be , but still nice neither the less ^^

After that we went twirling around before we head back home ....MY home =,= heheheh~

(No naughty thoughts okay ? xD )

At my house we then had another movie -----

P.S. : This is NOT a zombie movie

YAY TO PIRATED MOVIES !!! XD

After the dinner and some bathe (2 person at DIFFERENT TIME ) , it was dinner time ^^ .

We went to a restaurant in IDK where (it was in Selangor , and pass 1U ) ,and ordered a chinese new year combination.
*yes i know it's too early for that = = )

The dinner last till....take a guess

wait for it

11 ++ PM !!!! O.0

....and to think it started from 8.00 ++ pm .........

Spider Webs...and love

2009-12-27T08:34:00.000-08:00

Hey guys ,

I know I know , it's been a long time since i blogged
I can even see spider webs forming in my once beloved circus of stories and life =/

Either way,
in case some one went to Mars in these few weeks , SPM'S over !!!!! (last weeks ago -- )
...but that;s not the point ....

I used to dream about life after SPM , when all the torture will end and i have months of free time =3
However ,Life after SPM isn't all cookies and butterflies ...
For the 1st few days, yeah life was like paradise ,no worries and all.
However, after a few weeks, all the illusions of paradise starts to fade off....

It is during these moments i know ,life without an aim is pointless and dull.

My biggest consult of all , is my relationship with my dearest..
All i ver wanted , was to be able to spend more time with her after SPM . Did that turn well in the end? Not as much as I expected..

Looking back at the days past , since the month i met her.. I can see , that she has done a lot for me . Gifts , love, care , everything I ever wanted , was all in my grasp in an instant . You just can't find girlfriends as nice as her these days , and I'm lucky to have her =3 (don;t be jealous )

However...a thought passed through my mine... What have I done for her?
With that thought tears sear through my cheeks...It is then i only knew..I haven't done much for her . Promises are made and broken , hopes are being bashed and disappointments are all that's left in the ruins...
She has done so much for me, yet I'm like....

sometimes i ask myself...what did I do to deserve such a wonderful girlfriend....

Honey, if you're watching this..
I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you . In the days we've been together ,I can see , you have shed tear after tear for me ,yet I'm still a jerk....a stupid foolish guy....a clown of stupidity,,,,

However , i promise you this...

In the days to come ,This stupid clown will make up for all the tears you've shed for him , and bring a smile to your face once more =3

Thanks for bearing with me for all this while Casey ...
Life isn't a short journey, a walk in the park.. There are pains and disappointment in every corner of life.
However
I'm sure..with you beside me ,My life will always be meaningful =3

I love you Honey .

Birthday ,Celebration and....Poppi ??!!

2009-10-27T04:52:00.000-07:00

Hey there =3
yea yea, i know~it's been a loooong time since i blogged, but what can I do?????
A clown has a busy life you know ><

Sleeping,
Talking to my dear ,
Gaming ,
Talking to my dear ,
Studying ,
Talking to my dear ,
Lazying around ,
Talking to my dear....

*silence *

....what do you mean i talk to her too much?????
Nah~ It's just your imagination =3

*Ahem ahem *

ANYWAY~~~~~~~~

Last Saturday ( 24 oct ) i just celebrated my honey's birthday with her xD
(yea yea her birthday is on the 23th...but lets not mind the details shall we? =P )

So..~ that morning (yes MORNING ) she arrived at my doorstep =3
So we went to the room, kicked my bro off the bed, along with a bit of snuggling *ahem ahem* ,and we went down to watch Pandorum ( pirated CD FTW!!!! )

After the movie, we went for some steamboat =D
*yea my family decided to do a steamboat lunch to celebrate for her ^^ *
It was quite nice to know that my family is accepting her xD

then in the afternoon ,
we went to the shopping complex near my house-- Brem Mall . We toured around the place until we reached a gift shop . I asked her to choose a present but as i had expected earlier ...
she said "Don't need ~"
Well, since that backfired , we continued our "quest" around the mall =/

We later stopped by at the bookshop,since dear wanted to get some stationaries
It was then i took a sneaky move xD

I told her i had diaorrhea, and needed to use the toilet .I then went down to the shop , bought her a gift, and gave her a suprise attack xD

What did i buy you said???
Let me show ya!!!

Thats right, its a dog named POPPI !!!!! xD

After all the mumbo jumbo, we went back and had a BBQ for dinner =3 !!!
*ahh... things my family do for celebration~*

So you tell me, is that a spectacular day or what ? xD

p.s. : choices are yesh!!!! and yup!!!! only

Reopening of Hel-...err...i mean school

2009-10-05T07:05:00.000-07:00

School has finally reopened , woohoo!!!!!!

Finally,I've been waiting for this moment for s

sooooooo long!!!!

YESH!!!!

*silence*

*even more silence*

......Bah who am i kidding =.=

School just sucks -.- .Teachers, homeworks (not to mention that i've wasted 8 hrs to do my holiday hw yesterday ) , the same old complains for the past 4 1/2 years + +
That will drive even a clown crazy @@
and i happen to be one!!!! x_X OMGOMGOMG

But judging that i just need to bear with it for another 2 months , so no point in complaining =/

Anyway, the 1st thing about school reopening is.... our trials results !!! And the truth is, i had quite a shock with my marks for trials. Below are the listing of my marks that HAD been confirmed =3

Physics   : 60
Moral     : 76
Maths     : 75
A. Maths: 79 (#!^#^!$@#^!*#^! )

YES I KNOW I HAVE A HIGHER MARK FOR A.MATHS THAN MATHS,
I'M SHOCKED MYSELF TOO o.0

*ahem ahem*

Anyway , SPM is now officially just 1 month away from us. Ahh.how fast time pass...
I still remember the day I've said SPM was just 1 month and a day away from us, ahh...the old times...
It seems just like yesterday whe-......
wait a minute , it seemed like yesterday because IS yesterday!!!

.......Damn , my brain is seriously degenerating with all that homework =.=

I miss my old brain TT_TT

Pain....Sorrow....and Regret

2009-10-01T22:41:00.000-07:00

Today i woke up with a bad headache, been like this till now . Had a nightmare (again ) the night before and could not get enough sleep i guess = x
Been spending my morning in dreamland,on the bed and teevee just to heal my head up =/

This morning my mom told me that we might have something on on Sunday , and that means i can't go to my dearie's house. I broke the news to her just now, and.....

~~I just couldn't take the sadness in her face~~

The looks, the eyes... one look of it and i couldn't bear to look at her anymore. I gave her hope and i couldn't even make it !! I'm the source of her sorrows , yet i can't do anything to cheer her up. I break her heart more than i;m able to sew it up....

My heart is filled with guilt, my eyes filled with tears...a moment of silence....

a break down.........

Sometimes my mom and grandma keep telling me, don't put so much effort into this relationship ,there might be better out there and blah blah blah . Every time i answered them " this is the one i want ",determined.
But now i ask myself...

Am I really fit for being her boyfriend ?
I know I love her, I know the feeling is true... but I just hurt her more and more . Almost every time she's in tears, it's always about me . Sometimes i feel that i'm just a shackle , a chain that ties her up . She tells me she loves me...but i ask myself....am i worth her love ?

I'm sorry honey, for all the sorrows and sadness i've caused you....
I love you....with all my heart,i do....

Allergy, Family meeting and....err weird ? o.O

2009-09-29T00:27:00.000-07:00

* Dont mind the title, i don't know why i put that too =x= *

Anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay,
Last Sunday i went to my dear's house for the 2nd time =3
I reached her house at around 8 something a.m. ( Yes it's MORNING ) and the door was already wiiiide open o.0 . I went in and the 1st thing i saw was

~~My honey in her pyjamas~~
omg omg it's just soooooooooo............ xD
sorry no pics =P

*Ahem ahem *
Okay ,moving along~
It was then i found out that my honey has allergy due to some food she taken yesterday,and was itchy all over >< . It was so sad looking at her scratching here and there, and her family even scold her (slight) for it TT_TT

So after a brief breakfast and a little talk with her mom, we went up to the room ( in case you were wondering, NO we didnt do anything ==''') to watch ....One Miss Call Final . Personally i find it not that scary , but compare to our local Malay ghost films, it's like...28 weeks later vs Teletubies ( and you all know how scary teletubies is right ) . But the plot was good though, shows how japanese still inputs romance in a supposingly terrifying movie ^^'''

So after the movie , we decided to go to MV before our buffet with the others =3
It was then thing took a bad turn ><

At MV, her allergy was starting to get worse, even with medicine applied ,and i was worried sick (OMG OMG OMG OMG ) TT-TT. So we straight away took a taxi to the clinic and she had an injection , which kinda relieves her from the itchiness (phew~) . It was then back to MV again =3

At MV, we decided to grab something to eat. It was then we did the worse decision of the whole day

* dramatic sounds *

~~EATING AT AUSTIN CHASE~~

Reasons :
1) They say they serve sandwiches for lunch...even if it wasnt available =x=
2) They said they had spaghetti ....and then ~~spagetti went poof~~
3) Tuna sandwiches was served...and the tuna was kept fresh as it was COLD

4) Their coffee is even worse than Nescafe instant =x=
We ended up going Starbucks instead

After the meal ,we went for the movie "G-force" (you know ,the hamster / guinea pig hero movie ?? )

Ugh nevermind....

Btw, the movie is no where as cool as the poster shows it to be --''' . But still it was funny , and i kinda have a good laugh ^^ And the best part is... My honey is beside me <3 <3 <3
*yea yea im going honey-crazed, so? =P *

After the movie we went to Delicious to try out their Traditional English Afternoon Tea (posh name BD)
Highly recommend it because of its awesome chocolate !! The other food was also nice but we had to take away as we needed an empty stomach for the buffet .

Then we took a taxi and went to UOA II , and started our quest on finding the lost Saisaki =x= . Just when all hope was gone and i took out my trusty wireless-communicating-through-the-push-of-buttons-device-thingamajig ( commonly known as handphone ) I looked up and saw...

Saisaki Japanese Buffet Restaurant

And after a while, choon showed up, along with wei meng which was standing at the direction we just passed by =x=

So we went up and had our dinner. The food was okay , but the shark fin soup and California roll was nice =3
It was then i choked and puked >,< ( DAMN YOU FISH BONE!!!! )
It was then time to go and we took a taxi to brickfields . It seems that the driver was also a regular guest of Saisaki , and we we're talking about it all way =P

It was at Brickfields honey's bro came and fetch us home =3

Weird day huh? BP

Penang, the land of.....Penang ?

2009-09-22T03:41:00.000-07:00

Hey guys , Clown's back xD

Yea yea i know , i've been leaving my circus to the dump for faaaaaaaar toooo long right? well you can't blame me !!!! =x=

Im a busy clown you know, since there's trials and sleep and pla and stuff...

.....well actually you can ^^''

ANYWAY!!!!

I'M JUST BACK FROM PENANG!!!!! =3

(Yea i know i've went to Penang 2 times last year edi , but hey =x= )
And this time My dear came along with me / us too~!!!!! xD

aint she adorable?? xD

*Ahem Ahem*

Moving along~

Our trip started on Saturday night ( 3 am in the morning? ) till ...well.... just now ?

We arrived at Butterworth at about 7 in the morning and " checked in " our...err...
motel/ residential house / whatever @@

After some rest and breakfast, it was Penang ,here we come!!!! =P

pics we took on the ferry

Day 1

Okay we arrived at Penang and had almost NO sense in where we are going @@. We toured around...err...somewhere before actually decided to go to Kek Lok Si temple .
Let me tell you, it's not easy to get there =_=

Stories and stories and climbing b4 actually getting there, and even MORE stairs when we're visiting the place o.0
Well, the place was beautiful and when those words came out from this clown, you must be sure it's beautiful =P

and now...pics!!!! xD

Our next destination was yet another temple, the snake temple .

This place ain't the place it used to be though =/ . With all the concrete buildings going on ,its hard to imagine snakes still coming here like it used to .
We DID had a snake show , whereby we saw the King Cobra closed up , and got to see a 8 metre Python feeding on a life chicken. o.0

Owh and there were hamsters and rabbits too, think they're food maybe? x.X

* sorry no pics this time*

After looking at cold blooded reptiles with a splice of rodents ( sorry bio minded @@ ) , we went to.... YET another temple . This time it's a siam temple .
This temple has a really special feature, the carrying buddha ( direct translate )
It is said that if u ask for a wish, and later state that if the buddha your grants you your wish , may you can/cannot carry the idol up . You can later try lifting up the idol. Judging by what you stated and whether you can lift the idol up, you can see whether your wish is granted.

Personally i tried it twice, and surprisingly , I can lift it one time while unable to lift it the second time o.0
* btw i wished to be together with my dear and get good results and college ,which was BOTH granted ^^ )

Our nest destination was.....you guessed it, temples again!!!!! @@
This time it was a DOUBLE DELUXE ,as there was 2 temples side by side @@

kinda lets me wonder how many temples are there in Penang

1 of them was the sleeping buddha temple and the other was a ...er.... i-dunno-what-it-is-temple . Well,nothing special bout here x.x
And here are the pics xD

And that concludes our 1st day of Penang =3

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Day 2 ~ Return to Penang
Okay so this is the second day of Penang !!

After having our breakfast/ lunch / brunch , our 1st destination was a muzeum of ...old-stuff-used-by-people-of-the-past-thingy @@
It was fun looking at a used-to-be temple turned muzeum . It kinda makes me feel happy to be in present o.0

Our next station was the San Pou temple . It is believed that he left a footprint there, and what a footprint it is o.0
Its around 80cm long , so that kinda makes him a giant/bigfoot right? =P

Legend also says that contrast with his left footprint in Penang, theres a RIGHT footprint in Melaka with the same proportion o.0

After looking at the biggest footprint of human existed , we went to the War Muzeum, and by went i really mean went, that is, just sat outside and not going in . It seemed like no one wanted to go and it was better off if we went somewhere else than staying at a past world war 2 battlefield @@

It was then we went to our final destination for the day , Queensbay mall !!! It's suppose to be the biggest mall in Penang, about the size of half of 1U in K.L.
At 1st we thought , finally, civilization!!! But i was wrong =x=

We walked till our leg sore, but yet there was nothing that we cant find in KL . Heck even the arcade in KL is better o.0 . The only real rare sight was a rollerskating field .Personally, i find it not all that compare to KL (SORRY to all penang readers ><)

After walking our legs off, we went back for a rest and went out for dinner. For the night we toured around the streets and in the end,ended up in another temple
*lolx when will this templing stop @@*

However,this temple is abit stylish compare to the others, as there were craving of dragons and a wall of 9 dragons o.0 Its awe to see something that is hard to make even with modern technology present in the past !!@@

So that concludes our 2 days Penang trip =3

Outing with my dear =]

2009-05-31T23:29:00.000-07:00

May 31,2009 , a special day for this clown

It's d 1st time i had my 1st official date with my dearest =]

( n yea u cn see her pics down as you read along =x )

Act one : Beginning
Time : 9.45
Venue : midvalley

I reached MV at around 9.45 ,while we decided to meet up only at 10
[ cant help right for me to get over excited n go early? =P ]

the sad thing is , she needs to get a jab for d influenze since she's going japan soon =x
So i went to d cinema to buy the tickets for the movie terminator Salvation .

(don't worry there won't be any spoilers =.= )

After buying the ticket, she was already here,so we went for a little "stroll " around the mall ^^
Owh and While strolling we bought ourselves a pair of rings xD

Here's mine xD

Act 2 : Theaters
Time : 11pm
Venue: Midvalley GSC

Okay so we went in for the movie terminator 3 . It was quite a good movie ,just a bit hard to understand for me >.< Well wat do you expect from someone who don't watch the 3 terminator movies b4 it? = =

We bought the tickets for the couple seats and we enjoyed the movie while she hugged onto my left arm x ] She told me to tell her if my arm gets too numb, but i didn't cuz i kinda didnt want her to let go ^^''

The cinema was also very cold so we were like,cold at the side,but warm at the middle [yea yea i know what y'all are thinking = = ]
Owh and while halfway through the movie,we kinda got too emotional and while she snuggled at me,we had our 1st kiss =P

Act 3 : Dance people dance
Time: 1.15 pm
Venue :Midvalley arcade

After the movie we went for a game of para para at the arcade . It was my comeback and i won her from last time's lost BD !!!! Hahax well that's bcuz she never played for a long time but...who cares? =P Owh we also got quite a crowd behind, liked the sense of attention xD

Act 4 :Garden
Time : lost track
Venue: The Gardens

We decided to look for the rooftop garden at the Garden. But b4 that we went to Baskin Robin and treat ourselves to some ice cream brownie xD It was hyper sweet and sour,but overall, nais BD

Before

After

See the difference? BD

After the dessert we continue our quest for the garden =x

a pic we took in the lift xD

After reaching we went for a little stroll in the garden . It was stil under renovation but it's already open for people to see . Owh and we also took a few pics there xD
Owh we also had another kiss there =x [ cant help it >< ]

ME POSING =P

Me n my dear =]

Act 5 : Home sweet home ?
Time : 4.10pm
Venue : Her house =x

Yea so after all that we went back to her house =x
Since her parents say they wanted to see me ^^''

At 1st i thought it was going to be very uncomfortable,but in the end everything turn out well xD
And i also got to go into her room =3

me posing in the car =]

Me on her bed =P

And the last pic of the day BD

I look retarded T.T

Early Edition (It's 9am okay????? )

2009-05-22T17:49:00.000-07:00

Yea i know it has been VEEERRRYYY long since i last blogged
but what to do ? It's the exam seasons >.<

.....well even if it's not i don't blog frequently anyway,i'm just too lazy =P

So yea as I just said,the dreaded exam's upon us, how wonderful = . =

Well look at the bright side, only 5 more days to go and it'll be freedom for 2 whole weeeeeks!!!!!!!!! xD

wooohooo!!!!!! *okay calms down o.0*

Anyway,as most of you might know already ( it's amazing how news spread like plague in my school -.-'' )
Yea I'm having some kind of relationship now =]

As for with who, if you're in my school just ask around and you'll find out =P
if you're not....well just wait for a while and it'll be announce soon xD

Owh and i wish to use this oportunity to tell her that ...

i feel very lucky to have her , she's caring understanding and well...just about everything possible =]
even though she sometimes bully me and everything T_T
Love you lots dear !! =]

Okay,time for more...erm...."studying" ^^'' (yea like THATS gona happen )
till nest time people, ciao ^^

An Outing with an Angel and 2 Monkeys ~

2009-04-29T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey! After a long time of rest ,the circus is finally back onto business xD

Sorry for the really really loooooooooong gap between post ><

But hey, a clown has his own busy life also right ? =P

anyway ,fellow audience, if you're wondering why this post is in language, well that's becuz the circus has gone INTERNATIONAL!!! xD
....okay it's bcuz this post is for a special "someone" who cant read chinese , so yea ^^''

Anyway, life has been all toss and turns for this clown in the past few weeks . Recently i just had an outing with some of my friends and Casey on Saturday at MV .

p.s. : those who kept bombarding me with questions for the past few days should be REALLY clear of who is she,right guys? = =

Chapter 1 : Reunion

i got there at around 10.20 , and my 1st impression (well more likely the second 1 ) was reallly shocking o.0
She was like wearing some guy's clothes or something and my 1st question to her was an epic one

" Is that shirt your father's or your brothers 1 a? "

LOL see!!1 i told you its epic xD

......she still looked quite hot and cute tho =P

anyway moving along~~~
We went to the arcade to play the para para paradise that we've been talkin for quite some time ,and i cant bliv I LOST !!!! Gah !!!!!!!!! *goes crazy RAWR*

CASEY I DEMAND A REMATCH NEST TIME !!! GRRRRRR = =

*chills down*
Okay so after that unbearable lost , we went on and played some drum game . For those who never play the game b4,hear my advice :
NEVER EVER PLAY A SONG OF LVL 12 !!!
It was my 1st game and just about 10 mins i couldnt feel my hands anymore T.T

Chapter 2 : Patience

After all that dancing and drumming, we went out in search of Yuen ,who sms-ed saying they were at AnimeTech . While we were searching for the 2 late comers (= =) , we stopped by a accesories shop . What happen next you ask? Yuenny say he passed by us and we couldnt see them LOL
well cant blame us right? his just tooo short xD (no offence yuen)

Chapter 3 : Back to Square One

After meeting up with the troublesome 2, we went back to the arcade so some more gaming lolx!! ( cant blame right? we didnt knw wat else to do!!! )
After somemore gaming, Yuen n Meng decided to go to Pets Wonderland while Casey was still playing para para . So technically they just dumped us there =/ Well cant complain tho since i got a whole vid clip of CASEY DANCING xD (WHO WAN????? )

Since those 2 were watchin and drooling over cuddly animals , me and Casey decided to stroll over to Action CIty and Boarders while waiting for them...and what a long wait it is !!! = =
I got fed up and straight away called them up and shouted at them like no tommorow, but not before telling "excuse me' to Casey =X (what??? Im polite okay??? )

...owh and guess wat,they were stalking us all along = =

Chapter 4: The End

After all the mumbo jumbo, we finally reached the climax (????) for the day , Karaoke!!!
We all sang like there's no tommorow xD (well i knw i did)
Owh i also got to duet "A whole New World" with Casey xP
It was..................nevermind no comments lolx ^^''

At around 3pm Casey had to go =/
Gah,stupid tuition = =
Well since i didnt like going out with guys only, and the 2 fella tag-along were just equally as bored as me ,we decide to call it a day and went back =/
Why couldnt she stay longer ? T.T

Owh btw,i wont upload any pics bcuz i look absolutely horrible in them =x=
as for Casey's pic...well i nid to ask for permission 1st xP

OWH Alot had happened after the outing, but all those will have to wait for nest time (i'm getting lazy okay??? = = )

So until nest time people,ciao !!!xD

MidValley Outing

2009-04-10T17:44:00.000-07:00

突然发现我好像很久都沒 blog 了
沒辦法嘛﹐最近生活都超忙的﹐加上我懶惰的個性
所以呢 paiseh 啦 ^^‘

昨天我校得到了特別假期說什麼 good friday 噢還真是一個 "Good" Friday ^^''

一大清早就和朋友跑去 MidValley 行街了﹐ 還是當天早上才決定的 tim = =

到了那兒﹐大概是11.30吧沒想到個個都在ARCADE 玩得傻掉了 @@

算算一下﹐還蠻多人的﹐ 又剛好遇到另外一組女生 ﹐我們應該霸佔了半個場地了吧 *lol*

走著走著﹐ 突然看見我很久沒碰的跳舞機 ﹐一時興奮就去玩了幾下
成绩呢，可以说Drop 了啦 =/
haih, 也难怪..

半年没玩,加上早上吃的超饱的，感觉还像吐 T.T
舞姿呢，应该还可以吧 o.0
分数烂,舞姿好, 一样算好的啦!!! *自我安慰中*

正当我想吐的时候，有个 Friend 拉了我去陪他买礼物 = =
还特地从MV跑到The garden 那里去leh
不过呢，收获是挺不错的啦

我也买了两个"小面包"呢 XD

是不是超~可爱呢！！！！！
还有面包香的噢 xD
又不会过期，又能任按任挤都不会变形
虽然不能吃啦 =/

买完东西后呢，就大概到看戏时间了
我们原本预定要看 Fast and Furious 4 的
没想到，出了一些小“状况” = =

查票员看我们当中有几个不像18岁，所以拒绝让我们进入，超不爽的 = =
最后搞到我朋友跑去跟他们理论，加上我们当中有几个看起来像18岁的 (包括我啦当然== )
很自然的，我们大部分都进去了
*我那位勇敢的朋友没跟，不知怎么了*

它的故事呢，我就不方便透露了，免得扫人家的兴 ..
但是呢，这集的赛车场面有点少，故事剧情却比前几集来得好 o,0
勉强算过关吧 =]

看完了电影，就开始有人各奔东西了
我呢回之前，就和几位朋友去bowling 一下
p.s. :成绩也是退步了 T.T

大约到了4.30 pm， outing正式结束了 =/

感想：一大班人出去，如果没有女生，还真是有点无聊的 ^^''

~小丑的自白~

2009-04-03T17:42:00.001-07:00

最近有个朋友找我当了爱情顾问。他说，他喜欢很久的女孩被另一个男生给抢先一步了。听他那失落的语气，想也知道他受了莫大的痛苦=/

最可笑的是，我这个“爱情顾问”，完全没办法说出半句安慰的话这使我顿时觉得自己很没用，但也让我明白了一个道理...

爱，或不爱，这个问题难道真的那么难回答吗？就不过是听听你自己的心罢了嘛。

话虽是这么说，但有时，人总往往对自己的感觉产生迷惑。有时，人会把一份友情错看成了爱情，而导致朋友都没得做。但有时，人则是太拖延，才会白白错失一份真诚的感情。就像我朋友一样 =/

虽然替我朋友感到不值，但仔细想想，那男的其实都没错啊。他只是比我朋友更勇敢，先向那位女孩表白了，完全都没有错啊！想到这，我也只能替我朋友感到可惜..

虽然这件事一点也不值得高兴，但却也提醒了我，一份感情是要去争取的 !

虽说告白不代表一定会成功，但不提起勇气去说，就肯定没机会。

有时，一份真诚的感情就摆在你面前了，剩下的，就只是等你大声说出来，但你却迟迟不踏出这一步。

结果，时间冲淡了感情，一份良缘也因此错失了。这,值得吗？

回想一下，其实我也尝试过类似的情况。还记得当时，因为自己的懦夫，而失去了一位在我心里许久的女孩。这种悲哀与痛楚，的确足以毁了一个人的心。这种悲痛，我曾经发誓，决不要再次承受了...

然而，感觉上现在，我又再次的陷入了这个陷阱了....

我喜欢你，这句话，难道真的那么难说出口吗？

然而，时间不会等人的。错过的机会，就只会形成左胸口的悲痛...

而剩下的，就只能祝福了.....

保护色

2009-04-03T17:39:00.000-07:00

想对你说的让他先说了

从此只能猜测

你流泪是因为快乐

想要给你的他先给你了

从此只能负荷

寂寞和爱本来能分割

祝福你是我的保护色

专心扮演朋友的角色

在你们拥抱的那一刻

我心一分为二

欺骗你是我的保护色

甘心做个爱情的弱者

真爱不是就能逃的远远的

等待是我自责

路越走越曲折不能回头了

能伤害我的都是我爱的

还保护什么还保护什么

祝福你是我的保护色

专心扮演朋友的角色

在你们拥抱的那一刻

我心一分为二

欺骗你是我的保护色

甘心做个爱情的弱者

真爱不是就能逃的远远的

等待是我自责

爱你是天责

小丑的 I.R day

2009-04-03T06:21:00.000-07:00

今天我校举办了历年的I.R day....简单来说，就是不同学校Leo Club 之间的交流会吧。

今年他们的主题是“HEROES” O.0

一时兴起，就约了一班朋友一起留校去看。门票呢，是一人RM8 ，有够贵的 = =

一进到会场，感觉上满普通的。当时真的有种被骗的FEEL。= = 走下走下，就遇到了一群“Heroes” xP

讲是酱讲，其实都不是很像的=/

其中呢包括了有 The Hulk ，Star Wars 的 Princess Leila，Batman等等...就连牧师都有leh (他们算哪门子的英雄啊？ = = )

过了不久，活动终于开始了。起初，都是一堆致词啦什么的，简直是无聊到~~极点。讲下讲下，终于有表演可以看了。一开始呢是一支舞蹈。我的评语只是....普普通通，一点都看不出哪里yeng = =

整项活动最大的卖点，应该就是他们的Sketch 吧。Walao，他们真的把那些英雄给丑化到~ WEI，如果有小孩在场，他们的梦想英雄应该都会一一被破灭吧==

不过呢，实话实说，他们的Sketch还满爆笑的，真是赚翻掌声 O.0

最后一项表演呢，就是传统的歌唱啦。主唱是蛮好的啦，只可惜音响系统真实烂到不能顶==
还有两个吉他手。你们嘛拜托一下，假也要假到像样一点嘛。手都没动会有音乐出？还好有两个是真才实料的

大约到了五点，活动结束了。没想到不幸的事一一发生 = =
才刚出去等车，天空就下起了雨。跑去哪儿避雨，哪儿就会有风吹，被雨淋 = =
换了大概4个地方，终于可以了......没想到，竟然会淹水= =

我想，天公爷是非要我淋湿不可的啦==
Haih，运气真是背到~

~小丑的自白~

2009-03-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

最近有个朋友找我当了爱情顾问。他说，他喜欢很久的女孩被另一个男生给抢先一步了。听他那失落的语气，想也知道他受了莫大的痛苦=/ 最可笑的是，我这个“爱情顾问”，完全没办法说出半句安慰的话这使我顿时觉得自己很没用，但也让我明白了一个道理...

爱，或不爱，这个问题难道真的那么难回答吗？就不过是听听你自己的心罢了嘛。

虽然替我朋友感到不值，但仔细想想，那男的其实都没错啊。他只是比我朋友更勇敢，先向那位女孩表白了，完全都没有错啊！想到这，我也只能替我朋友感到可惜..

虽然这件事一点也不值得高兴，但却也提醒了我，一份感情是要去争取的 !

虽说告白不代表一定会成功，但不提起勇气去说，就肯定没机会。有时，一份真诚的感情就摆在你面前了，剩下的，就只是等你大声说出来，但你却迟迟不踏出这一步。
结果，时间冲淡了感情，一份良缘也因此错失了。这,值得吗？

回想一下，其实我也尝试过类似的情况。还记得当时，因为自己的懦夫，而失去了一位在我心里许久的女孩。这种悲哀与痛楚，的确足以毁了一个人的心。这种悲痛，我曾经发誓，决不要再次承受了...

然而，感觉上现在，我又再次的陷入了这个陷阱了....

我喜欢你，这句话，难道真的那么难说出口吗？

然而，时间不会等人的。错过的机会，就只会形成左胸口的悲痛...

而剩下的，就只能祝福了.....

低落的小丑....

2009-03-30T01:56:00.000-07:00

低落的小丑，把自己关在漆黑的小房间里

他不明白为何低落，也不知低落的理由......

满房的孤独与寂寞感，缠绕着小丑，迟迟不离去

而陪伴着小丑的，是内心的悲哀.....

小丑的心情：无名的灰暗 =/

中华行义跑

2009-03-28T19:53:00.000-07:00

今天是中华独立中学的行义跑

虽然我不是中华生，但我还是去参加了
结果五点就得爬起来了，有够累的= =

没办法，谁叫我对这行意跑有兴趣，也就只能怨自己了 =/

到达现场后，只见一片”红海“ 。中华生人数多已经是个问题了，现在全部人还同时穿着红衣，简直比集在一群的斑马更撩乱视线嘛= =

还好我穿的是白衣，否则我看连我自己都会丧失其中== (虽然白色也搞到我非常显眼 )

过了一会儿，大家终于起跑了。说参加只是好听，其实我连跑都没跑到 ^^''
不过一眼看下去，中华生都还满努力的。跟我校比起来。。。顿时感到很自卑 T.T

对了，中华的啦啦队也蛮有趣的，一个两个精神好到~ 无言 o.0

过了大概30分钟，终于有人跑回终点了... 蛮快了的说，总程6KM ，想到都怕 >,<

自第一名过后，陆续都有人冲向终点。一个个都汗流浃背，还看到有人晕倒和腿软，真是够力
对这些”烈士们“，我也只能深深佩服了...o.O

对了，我在这次行义5跑中见到了一个从没见过的朋友，佩淇 (说实在的，你还真的挺小只的 =P)
只是不知她有没有注意到我。。应该有吧，我酱显眼 xP

更何况你还是从我旁边跑过 leh=.=

果然和相片一样，长相挺可爱的 =P

大约在10点多，行义跑正式结束了。虽然没跑，但我还是搞到鞋子肮肮脏脏。，谁叫我衰睬到烂泥 ==
不过，反正可以见到她一面，应该可以说毫无怨言了吧哈哈 ^^''

小丑的成绩册 o.0

2009-03-26T07:15:00.000-07:00

近来呢，本小丑拿了各科考试的成绩 (干嘛？小丑也是有学校的啊= =)

而分数呢...不算差，但却让我感到非常无言= =

以下是小丑学校的分数排行榜：

A1 = 80分以上

A2=75~79分

B3=70~74分

B4=65~69分

C5=60~64分

C6=55~59分

D7=50~54分

E8=45~49分

G9=45分以下(也就是“肥佬” 啦)

以下是本小丑的考试成绩：

国语：72分 ( 多三分就A了啦= = 无言第一)

英语：68分(还好。这次的英文实在是不能顶的= =)

数学：81分 (终于有个A了T。T )

高级数学： 36分(厉害吧！可见小丑对加减乘除以外的数学都不在行)

生物：73分 (又一个A跑了 T。T 无言No.2 )

物理：63分(算了，有进步就好 ^^*自我安慰中*)

化学：47分(废话，我没搞到实验室爆炸就谢天谢地了==)

道德：73分(好球，三振出局*不爽当中*)

公民：86分(期待已久的A回来了！！)

电脑：84分(我电脑可不是白玩的噢嘻嘻XD)

历史：72分(心灰意冷。。)

总成绩：3A 6B(其中三科差一点A==)，1E，1“肥佬”

现在你明白为什么小丑我无言了吧= =

我想老师不是不爽我，就是个个都是虐待狂啦，死都要让我哭就对了啦 = =

真实不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽不爽 ........... x 50383次！！！！

好啦，以上为小丑的各人成绩

小丑本身呢，除了非常不爽外，其实觉得自己做的还好啦

各位观众，你们觉得呢？

(PS：谁敢说不，就来跟我单挑== 我铁定把你拿去喂狮子= =)

小丑的迷惑

2009-03-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

什么是"爱"?
这个问题，曾经缠绕这小丑但，这切都成了过去...

对于小丑而言，他的责任，是取悦身边的每一位来宾.
而在人生舞台上，小丑将每一个人都是观众,
并无需要什么爱和不爱的....

对于小丑来说，”爱“是麻木的....

这并不是因为小丑没谈过恋爱，而是早已对恋爱感到绝望....

小丑曾经有过几次感情经历，但是每每都以失败告终满慢慢的，小丑对爱得期待已渐渐消失...

但有一天，这，一切都改变了.

某天，正当小丑有位特别的女孩，踏进了马戏团.

这位女孩，面带着一副面具。
起初，小丑认为女孩和他人一样,
只是他人生中会遇到的另一位观众.

不过，小丑却错了
当天，小丑表演得很惬意，观众们又是鼓掌又是喝彩.
这时，他不经意发现，女孩，散发了欢乐的气息
虽然从未看过女孩的脸，但小丑却感觉到，女孩的微笑以及快乐
小丑看着她，也微笑了.

日子一天一天的过去，女孩天天都来捧小丑的场.
而小丑也，天天地为这位女孩表演.
他明白，这位女孩是特别的，但却不明白，哪儿特别？

这，会是小丑期待已久的恋爱吗？小丑曾如此想过..

但，小丑连女孩的样子都没见过，这有可能吗？

想到此，小丑的笑容也慢慢消失了。小丑不再理会这份特殊的情感，只求能为女孩献上完美的演出，直到永远....

但有一天，女孩却没出席了.
小丑的心情非常失落，对于表演也无法认真了..

一天，两天的过去了，女孩却还是消失于小丑的表演中..
小丑着急了..

女孩的失踪，让小丑回想了当时的问题：

“我对女孩的感觉到底是哪种？”

是爱吗？还是其他的？

这个问题的解答，却从未出现在小丑的脑海里...

失败的小丑

2009-03-17T20:45:00.000-07:00

小丑的悲哀，绝不是丑，也不是小，而是始终要带着面具，隐藏着面具下的眼泪来逗人发笑

舞台前的欢乐，隐藏着的，却是舞台后的悲伤

　　我的悲哀，不因为我是小丑，而是因为我自愿带上了面具。

　　可我是个失败的小丑，即使是带上面具都无法令别人开心。

有几次想拆下面具，却又害怕面对真实...

可是，哪张是脸？哪张是面具？

失落的小丑,

失去了原有的坚强和强韧,

可怜而可悲的,

继续着人生的舞台剧....

重返舞台..

2009-03-17T10:08:00.000-07:00

新的一天，
新的人生，
新的一页，
马戏团又要开演了..

抛开过去，
迎接新的开始
让我再次带您进入小丑的幻想世界..

买好票了吗？准备好了吗？

先生小姐们，
让我们开始新的舞台剧吧..